MY OWN DAMN MANUAL - CHAPTER TWO

Today’s chapter tackles relationships.  Are you ready for something that might freak you out?  For something that might enlighten you further on the inner workings of positive relationships?

If you so, you’re reading the wrong Damn Manual!

I’ve been married a handful of times.  I’ve had my share of dates, relationships, etc.  There is no manual for relationships.  

You hear stories about those grandparents who’ve been together for 100 years and raised 16 kids in a “Leave it to Beaver”  fashion-y kinda world.  The kids grew up all functional and shit.  They married their high school and college sweethearts, had 2-5 kids a piece and get together for every holiday and birthday.  They’re a real family where they love one another and no one is an alcoholic, no one is suffering from mental illness, and no has any issues with their children.

Um…yah.  I call bullshit.  A real fuckin’ bullshit story that is!  There is no time in history where such family exists.  With that said, if this is a farce, how in the fuck do we learn how to have functional relationships? 

We learn from our fuckin’ dysfunctional lives.  The dysfunction sometimes is manageable and doesn’t scar us too much.  Most of us however…most of us have scars a mile deep.

In my case, for some reason I cannot seem to commit long term to anyone other than my kid and my parents.  The rest of the world can just fuck right off.  I’ve never been great at friendships, dating, marriage, etc.  I’ve never been great at sugar coating shit.  I’ve found that when I have sugar coated myself, those are the times in my life where I have had more “relationships”.  You know, friends, dating, marriage, etc. 

Those times where I have had that, sugar kinda life, it wasn’t real.  It wasn’t deep.  I realized this in a big way recently and decided to let that shit go.  To be okay with my life no matter the amount of people or types of relations I have in my life.

I threw all that shit in the fuckin’ dumpster for good.  I have turned the sugar on and off throughout my life and it’s just a waste of who I am.  Write that shit in your, Own Damn Manual. 

There it is folks!  Don’t sugar coat or dilute yourself through life, even on and off for moments of time.  Be yourself.  If the world can’t handle that shit, then that’s part of the world you do not need to expend energy on.